All Waf’s Exes Are Crazy VI

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. Thank you for your time.
If you must look back, do so forgivingly. If you must look forward, do so prayerfully. However, the wisest thing you can do is be present in the present…gratefully. -Maya Angelou
Chapter VI: Peace Be With You (Winona Michaels)
“Did you see Peace? How is she?” I stared into blank, expectant eyes. “She must be older now. Prettier too, I bet. She always had glorious skin, you know? Like Asians–glass-like, but dark. I always thought it was stunning. Black as night. I hope she has grown to love it as well, has she?” I didn’t know where to start. I couldn’t divulge any information to Winona, but the way she asked, the genuine longing in her voice, confirmed her deep care.
“Peace is well,” was all I could give. I was here to hear from her.
I could see she was jumpy, excited. I doubted she found people to chat with often. Seeing that I didn’t add anything, she calmed herself a little. “You can’t tell me. I know. It’s rough, being here. Sometimes I just want someone to tell stuff but everyone else is just so glum and I can’t handle it. Today’s a great day, though. When Penny mentioned you I knew I just had to come. So, about Peace. Wow, where to start. Peace and I were friends literally from the womb. Our moms were besties. They met at the maternity clinic in PGH.”
“You mean the Provincial General Hospital?” I interrupted her. “It was renamed.”
“Really? To what? Don’t tell me a politician’s name because I will cry and pull all my hair out I promise you–” Instantly, I regretted interrupting her flow.
“It’s now the Nakuru Level 6 Hospital.”
“Oh,” she placed her index finger on her chin, feigning deep thought. “I guess that works. What’s the other levels?”
“Health care facilities are classified in levels now. From level one to–”
“Our beloved PGH. Sorry, I mean Nakuru Level 6 Hospital. Well deserved too. I can’t tell you how many times we walked down that road to the Showground from Milimani and back simply because we were bored out of our damn minds.”
“Winona.”
“Yes?” I allowed the silence to fill the air and return us back into the story. “Right. Me and Peace. Besties.”
Peace and I. I corrected her in my mind to avoid another tirade.
“So we grew up together. Same schools. Deskmates. Walked home together. Till I joined boarding school and Peace didn’t, because, and hear this, her father refused her wishes. That’s what she told me when I was being shipped off, well, I joined the same school we were in. It still stung when she would pick her backpack at four and leave me at school. Boarding school was her idea in the first place. She said she was going and I had to go. It was obviously easy to get my mom to agree to it. Then Peace picks her bag on the first day of Class Four, after I had enrolled the previous day to her absence, claiming she would join the next week, then the next term, then Waf said she wasn’t even planning on it, hadn’t broached the subject with her dad. But he told me this the day of the party so,” she sighs, long and deep. “I hated having to taste the food made at home, the weekend stories, the movies I only got to watch through her telling, and I’ll have you know, that girl can’t tell a story to save her life. We drifted apart a bit. We still sat together, walked together, shared items. We still bought beads for each other’s hair, got our periods at roughly the same time and shared lunches. However, we couldn’t stop the secrets. Well, I’d say the end of it all started with me. I developed a crush.”
She stared into the distance, as if looking at the horizon but not really seeing it. I remained silent, simply because I wanted her to go on. There is no room for deviation when you encounter a rambling brain. You only have to give it grace. Instead, I watched her as she remembered.
“I’m not sure if the crush would have developed if I never went to boarding school. I never wanted to go, you know. But my parents were rarely there and the commute was insanely long and there was no time to start teaching me routes to take and which public means to choose because everyone was busy at home. It was always something about the election.”
Her mother was either planning for it, recovering from it, thinking of plans to take when the electioneering period approached. “There were campaigns, travel plans, issues with political opponents, which strategies to use and how did they compare to what the other parties were doing, post campaign meetings, pre-campaign periods. I had to stay in school, and I did, despite hating it. I hated being away from Peace. We had made our lives one from childhood. It would be easy to just say doing that was hard. Sometimes, before boarding, we even slept in each other’s bedrooms on school nights,” she shifts the conversation. “Waf only came home during the holidays and he was always so serious looking so we rarely bothered him. However, at school, my parents asked him to take care of me when I joined. My mattress was still folded, the metal box beside it as sweat covered my palms, my mother made him promise to take care of me. He was in class six and had spent all six years in boarding school, so he joked about being a true expert in the field. I remember all his jokes because they were the most corny shit you ever heard.”
“Most people join boarding school at class four or five. How old were you?” “I was nine. I guess my parents were normal. Peace said Waf went to boarding school because their parents didn’t want him damaged by their divorce. He was five. I don’t know about that.”
Winona’s eyes, still fixed on a distant memory, softened further. “Parents do things to kids, whether they know it or not. The crush, it was Waf. Of course. He was in Class Six, so much older, so much cooler. At school, he was different. Not like the serious Waf at home. He’d spend time with me in the library, talking about Harry Potter, even though I knew he probably thought it was childish. He’d help me with my math homework, his patience a surprising contrast to his usual dismissiveness. I’d try to make him laugh, to impress him with my quick wit, but he’d just give that small, knowing smile that made my stomach flutter. I knew he was just being nice because my mom asked him to look out for me, but a girl can dream, right?”
She paused, a wistful smile playing on her lips, then leaned in conspiratorially, as if sharing a sacred secret. “Peace and I were still close then, before… everything. I remember one afternoon, we were sitting on my bed, flipping through a fashion magazine. I was telling her about Waf, probably for the hundredth time, and I said, ‘You know, if I ever married him, my name would be Winona Wafula. Winona Wafula! It’s written by the gods in alliteration! It’s meant to be, right?’ Peace just stared at me, then rolled her eyes so hard I thought they’d get stuck. ‘You’re insufferable, Winona,’ she muttered, then snatched the magazines and started flipping through each one aggressively, pretending to be engrossed. From my window, we could see Lucas in the yard, leashing the guard dogs for their evening run, their barks echoing faintly. Peace didn’t even glance up. But I knew. I always knew she hated it, even then.”
A shadow crossed her face, and her gaze shifted, a flicker of genuine worry. “But then Peace… she changed. It started slowly, after she got involved with that Dr. Owuor’s congregation. Her clothes… they just kept getting longer, more layers. Her hair was always covered, even when she came to visit. She started looking at me differently. Like my clothes, my music, my jokes… they were all wrong. Unholy. I remember one time, I was wearing a new pair of jeans, and she just looked at me, her eyes so cold, and said, ‘You look like a man, Winona. God doesn’t want women to dress like men.’ It hurt, you know? We used to share everything. Now, she just… judges. I tried to talk to her, to understand, but she just says I need to find God. It felt like I was slowly losing her, and I didn’t know how to get her back.” A faint tremor touched her voice, a vulnerability that resonated with my own understanding of loss. “She even noticed my crush on Waf. She pretended it didn’t bother her, but I could feel her irritation, like a prickle in the air whenever I brought him up. I think she hated it, actually.”
The party was in full swing when Lucas, Winona, and Wafula arrived, the air thick with the scent of cheap perfume and teenage exuberance. The sprawling Upperhill house, usually so quiet, pulsed with a controlled chaos. About twenty kids, mostly from Friends Academy, mingled in the living room of one of the houses in the street and spilled out onto the patio. Music thumped from an unseen speaker, and groups huddled, whispering secrets and sharing laughter. There was soda, crisps, a few awkward attempts at dancing, and the usual teen-appropriate games. Winona, usually so reserved around Wafula, seemed to blossom in the crowd, her laughter a little louder, her movements more fluid. Lucas observed the subtle glances she cast at Waf, the way her eyes lingered on him when he wasn’t looking. Wafula, for his part, seemed to revel in the attention, a casual king holding court, his polished charm on full display.
As the night wore on, the two oldest girls, both Class Eight leavers, announced their departure. “Winona, you coming with us?” one of them called, already halfway out the door.
Before Winona could answer, Wafula stepped forward, a possessive hand lightly on her arm. “She’s with us,” he stated, his voice smooth, leaving no room for argument. “Patricia asked us to look out for her, and that’s what we do.” The girls shrugged, exchanged knowing glances, and left. Lucas felt a familiar prickle of unease. Wafula’s control, even over something as minor as Winona’s departure, was absolute.
Minutes later, an older boy Lucas vaguely recognized from Form One, a known troublemaker, emerged from the kitchen, two dark glass bottles clutched in his hands. Gin. The air in the room seemed to shift, the innocent buzz replaced by a sharper, more dangerous energy. “Got these from… a friend,” he slurred with a triumphant grin.
Wafula took one of the bottles. “It’s fine,” he announced, his voice carrying over the music. “My dad lets me drink with him. We’re cool like that.”
Lucas felt a cold knot tighten in his stomach. He hesitated, his gaze darting between the bottle and Wafula’s confident smirk. This felt different. This felt wrong. But then Winona, her eyes bright with a dangerous excitement, reached for the second bottle. “Come on, Lucas,” she urged, her voice a little too loud, a little too eager. “It’s a party!” Her support was an unspoken challenge that sealed their fate. Lucas stayed.
The next thing Lucas knew, he was waking up, a jarring jolt into a profound, suffocating darkness. The music was gone. The laughter, the whispers, the very presence of others – all vanished. He was alone. The house, once vibrant, now felt hollow, haunted by the echoes of a party long past. A chilling silence pressed in on him, broken only by the frantic pounding of his own heart. He felt a cold dread as a premonition of something being terribly wrong, seized him. He fumbled for his phone, the screen a dead black. Panic, cold and sharp, began to claw at him. He had to find them. He had to find Winona.
He stumbled out of the house, the night air a shock against his skin. He was naked. The street was empty, eerily so. He walked, then ran, the familiar path home stretching endlessly before him, each step fueled by a growing terror for his friends. His mind raced, replaying fragmented images of the party, of Winona’s eager face, of Wafula’s casual arrogance. What had happened? Where were they? He stayed in the shadows and used the back gate to the servant quarters he shared with his mother.
When he finally walked around the main house to Winona’s gate, his lungs burning, a strange sight greeted him. There were people. Many people. Huddled figures, hushed voices, a sense of urgency in the air. He pushed through the small crowd, his eyes scanning frantically, searching for a familiar face. And then he saw him. Wafula. His face was pale, his eyes puffy, red-rimmed, a mirror of his mother’s on that morning years ago. He was leaning against the gatepost, his usual composure shattered.
Lucas stumbled towards him, a desperate question forming on his lips. Before he could utter a sound, Wafula looked up, his gaze hollow, and the words, thick with a raw, unfamiliar pain, fell from his lips like stones.
“Win is hurt, Luc. Badly.”
And in that moment, as the words hung in the cool night air, Lucas and I feel a chilling resonance echoing of the past and a terrifying premonition of the future. The same darkness that had consumed Penny, that had claimed his own life, now reached for Winona. The threads of their lives, so intricately woven by Wafula’s presence, were beginning to unravel, one by one.
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Kids, we’re behind schedule, I know. We’ll fix it.
All Waf’s Exes Are Crazy V

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. Thank you for your time.
You don’t have to turn this into something. It doesn’t have to upset you. – Marcus Aurelius
Chapter V: Look Again
The tapestry of Wafula’s individualism, Lucas now tells me, was woven from threads spun in the earliest days of childhood. He lays it in a pattern as my vision unravels, a relentless current, pulling me back to a quieter, yet equally pivotal moment in Nakuru. I see mere boys of six, standing on the precipice of Class One.
The Wafula house in Nakuru was a testament to Kenyan moneyed decor. There was plush, slightly oversized furniture, gleaming wooden surfaces, and an air of comfortable, if a little ostentatious, prosperity. A house fit for a mheshimiwa. It was the weekend before school began, the air thick with the scent of new textbooks and the nervous anticipation of first-graders.
Wafula’s mother, her eyes puffy and shadowed, as if she had spent the night wrestling with a fresh, bitter truth, handed the boys their back-to-school items. The faint tremor in her hand almost went unnoticed as she gave them the wrapped bags. Consolata sat in her bedroom, a silent acknowledgment of the secret recently discovered. Wafula’s mother’s burden was a shadow of a past indiscretion now made painfully real.
Upstairs, I sensed Wafula Snr, his movements brisk. I hear the sharp click of suitcase latches echoing faintly. Undeniably, he was packing his things, barely preparing his family for the sudden departure that would reshape their lives.
“Look, Waf!” Lucas exclaimed, his small hand tearing at the wrapping paper, revealing a bright blue backpack adorned with Batman artwork. His eyes, wide with unadulterated joy, turned to his friend. “It’s just like yours!”
Wafula, however, did not share his delight. His own backpack, identical in every detail, lay open on the polished floor. A flicker, quick as a snake’s tongue, crossed his face. He had wanted his backpack. His gift. How dare Lucas have the same? The joy on Lucas’s face, a complete mirror of his own, became an unbearable affront. I see him eye the small, sharp glint of the kitchen scissors, left carelessly on the table. Lucas didn’t notice his friend’s expression, nor when Wafula snatched the pair and carefully placed them in the bag. He forced a smile and thanked his mother, echoing Lucas’s words.
A few minutes later, in the upstairs bathroom, there was a swift, decisive snip. Then another. The blue fabric of the new backpack, moments ago a symbol of shared excitement, was now a jagged, ruined mess, Batman’s face bisected, his cape shredded. Peace stared, her mouth open, staring directly into her brother’s face. Wafula merely dropped the scissors, a faint smirk playing on his lips, and walked past her with the tatters. They did not speak. In fact, until long after both Wafulas had departed into the night, did his mother find the trash can full. Her digging led to a discovery that broke her heart for the millionth time that night.An hour before, the house was a flurry of hushed activity. Wafula Snr, his face a mask of controlled urgency, emerged from upstairs.
“Come on, Waf,” he’d said, his voice clipped. “We’re going to Upperhill.”
Consolata emerged from her room, her own face pale, eyes downcast. A small bag was clutched in her hand. She, too, was leaving with them. She remained a silent passenger in the unfolding drama, her fate inextricably bound to the Wafula family’s secrets.
Years later, in a different kitchen, the air remained charged with the brittle tension of unspoken truths. Lucas was there when Waf first flirted with Consolata, a predatory game thinly veiled as casual banter. He was seated at the kitchen counter, a silent, unwilling audience, as she did the dishes by the sink. Waf walked downstairs with his languid, entitled stride, and straight to the fridge. He stood with the fridge door open for a few moments, the cold air seeping into the room, before turning to him.
“Hey, Luc, what are you in the mood for?”
Consolata had already offered a cup of tea that Lucas had readily accepted. “I’m good, bro. Suit yourself.”
“Come on. I can’t eat alone. She can make us something.” He nodded sideways towards the sink.
“Hey, you. Si you can make us cheese omelettes?”
Lucas watched Consolata at the sink, her back to them. She had her Oraimo airpods in and was humming a tune, oblivious to the hungry teen boys staring at her.
“She can’t hear us?” Wafula whispered, his lips widening to a cheeky grin, a cruel glint in his eyes. “Let’s make this fun.” He let the fridge door close with a soft thud and walked towards the sink.
“Waf.” Lucas started, dreading what was to come. A cold premonition settled in his gut. He was met with an index finger on the lips, a silent command for silence.
Waf turned his back to his friend and continued, prancing like a lion in the Serengeti, a predator surveying his prey. He opened his palms and crouched low, as if trying to catch a hen marked for slaughter on Christmas Day. Moving slowly, deliberately, he approached, trying to avoid his reflection showing in the window in front of her.
“Dude.”
He ignored the unspoken plea. Wafula bent lower when he got to her, his hands already charting a course. Quickly, he decided to make the most of it and divide the tasks between his left and right hands. His left remained high as his right hand went low, lower than Lucas anticipated. By the time Lucas realized what his friend was planning, the alarm stuck in his throat. He tried to call him back, but his mouth forgot what to say, paralyzed by a sickening certainty. He watched in horror as Wafula bent low and snaked his left arm up Consolata’s skirt. Up it went, now his forearm was in uncharted waters. Still, it went. Higher till the piercing scream she let out marred the diabolical laughter he gave.
“What are you doing?!” She screeched, huddled in the corner, legs stuck together, one Oraimo airpod taking a soapy swim in the sink. Lucas watched as his friend fished the airpod and wiped it on his shirt casually, with an almost indifferent gesture.The study room door opened.
“What’s going on?” Wafula’s step-mother, Lucia, asked into the hallway, her voice sharp with annoyance. “Conso? What is it? Why are you yelling?”
If Lucia had left her desk at that moment, walked to her kitchen and asked Consolata to her face, she would have received the truth. But she waited, and sat, and called again.
“Conso?”
“Everything’s fine, Lucia. Conso just saw a gecko in the sink. You know how she gets.” Wafula’s voice, smooth and practiced, filled the silence.
“Okay Waf,” she replied to her step-son, her voice softening, already placated. “Please help take it out. We don’t want any more shrieking.”
“Sure thing.”
“And can you boys keep it down, please. I’m trying to work on my dissertation.”
“Okay Lucia,” the boys said in unison.If Lucia had left her desk for a minute, she would have seen the look Consolata was giving Waf at that moment. She might have noticed how scared the help was, a tear still dangling on her right eye as her hands desperately tried to cover what was already covered. She would have noticed the predatory grin plastered on Waf’s face, the embarrassed expression Lucas wore, and the profound disgust clouding Consolata’s features.
“You know,” Waf said quietly, his voice a low, insidious whisper, leaning in close to Consolata. “You don’t have to pretend. We all know you liked it.”Lucas let out the breath he was holding, gasping with a mix of relief and revulsion.
“Maybe we should go eat out.” Waf turned his attention back to him, the predatory gaze momentarily diverted.
“Yeah,” he agreed, a casual shrug. “Let’s get some wings instead. Conso puts too many onions on her omelette anyway.”
Turning to her, he realized her airpod was still between his thumb and index finger. “Here,” he stretched out his hand to her. “It should work.”
Consolata stared at Wafula, her eyes boring holes into him, a silent scream in their depths. She watched as he took two steps and towered over her. She did not raise her head as he placed the device back in her ear. Nviiri the Storyteller and Bien’s Niko Sawa was on the first chorus. She was not okay.
“Let’s go bud. We can pick some kicks in tao up before the wings.” Wafula walked out of the kitchen through the back door and into the garage. He threw open the passenger seat and settled in.Back in the kitchen,
Lucas pushed himself off the stool by the kitchen counter and walked around the bar into the kitchen. He stopped by Consolata and placed an unsure hand on her forearm.
“You know what he’s like,” he tried to find the right words, his voice a hesitant whisper. “Will you tell on him?” he paused. She looked up at him, and the dangling tear fell from her right eye, tracing a path of silent agony. Lucas wiped her cheek, a gesture of unexpected tenderness, then asked again. “Will you tell his father?”
She hesitated, her lips trembling. “I–”
“I’d advise you not to. His father won’t believe you, or will just brush it off. And you know your situation. It’s easier to keep this to yourself.” Lucas’s voice was low, pragmatic, a chilling echo of the world he was learning to navigate.She remained silent, her gaze fixed on some distant point.“He’s a good guy. He’s my friend. I know him. I’ll talk to him.” He wanted to assure her some more, to offer a comfort he couldn’t truly provide.
Suddenly, he was interrupted with a prolonged hoot from the garage.Lucas hurriedly followed his friend, leaving Consolata to soothe herself, her thoughts gaining heavy weight in the now quiet kitchen. He walked to the passenger door, where Waf was sprawled, the car keys dangling from his pinky finger out the window.
“You’re driving,” he said as soon as Lucas was next to him, a casual command.
“Dude.” They stared at each other until Lucas couldn’t take the blank, unyielding look he was receiving any longer. He knew, with a certainty that chilled him, that Waf would never truly understand.The narrative he had tried to build all his life shattered once more, pulling me away from the echoes of his memories.
All Waf’s Exes Are Crazy IV

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. Thank you for your time.
We are more often frightened than hurt; and we suffer more from imagination than from reality. – Seneca
Chapter IV: Penny For Your Thoughts?
Penny first told me the whole story by accident, a confession whispered through the potent echo of her memories. I wouldn’t have recognized her almond-shaped face if we’d brushed shoulders at a family gathering, so unassuming was her presence. She was soft-spoken, so much so that one instinctively leaned in, not just to hear her voice, but to catch the very current of her being. I spotted her as I was having a makeshift lunch one afternoon, before I knew anything myself, waiting for my best friend whose flight had been delayed at Jomo Kenyatta International Airport. I sat facing the arrivals exit, a Java House coffee and sandwich, my solitary companions. Our eyes met across the glass, naturally aligned like two girls sharing a glance in a crowded street. I suspect she was looking for anyone who might recognize her, and my gaze, by chance, offered that fleeting connection. More, I suspect she was looking for anyone who would truly listen, not with their ears, but with an open space within them. The next moment, she was seated opposite me, her spine aligning with an invisible meridian, the posture of quiet readiness.
“It’s funny, being here,” she begins, her voice a low current I feel more than hear. “I gravitate towards this Java because it is one of the last places I sat with him.” Her gaze drifts, a phantom thread stretching towards the washroom door. I keep my eyes fixed on the arrivals exit, anchoring myself against the growing pull of her narrative. “I went to that bathroom to fix myself before my flight, as was routine. This was not my first rodeo, yet he kept reassuring me. I don’t know if he was always like that. Sweet. I don’t recall much of his sweetness.” The words resonate with a faint, almost imperceptible dissonance. “That last time, things felt different. His father didn’t send anyone to accompany us. He had told him that we would be fine. I already knew the ropes and we didn’t need Frank with us. He was sent on a different errand. We were on our own. I must admit, it was exciting. The process was unpleasant, but it didn’t beat the money, and I’ll have you know, the money was more than simply attractive.”
An hour before her departure time, she had gone to that bathroom as usual. She gestures vaguely, but my internal vision doesn’t need the physical cue. I see it all: the small packages of white powder, neatly wrapped in clear and brown plastic, being shoved with practiced ease into the lining of her underwear. This was not her first rodeo, not by a long shot, and she was pushing herself, the urge to impress him, a silent whip. She had asked for more grams than the last time, justifying this dangerous escalation with her perceived expertise. Having transported the packages more than a dozen times, she felt, with a chilling confidence, that she was somewhat an expert.
Her first time, a stark memory rising unbidden, she had been shocked when Frank followed her into the bathroom at Waf’s bedsitter as she stripped. I witness it through her words: the hesitant unclasping from inside her shirt as his eyes, unblinking, watched her. “This is not a job for shy people,” Frank had boomed, his voice a disembodied echo, before Waf appeared at the door as she put her left arm back into her shirt. She pulled the right strap with her left hand, and her bra came off, a small surrender. Waf had grinned. “Just like magic,” he’d said, and I saw her, walking past him, placing the cup in his face, a gesture of almost desperate playfulness. They were in Roysambu. Waf had just told her his father had a way for them to make easy money and travel at the same time. Not one to waste an opportunity, Penny, ever eager to please, insisted he showed her immediately. They had walked from her last class, Waf explaining everything, painting a picture of adventure. Basically, he said, the job was to be a courier. Think Knight Rider, he had said, but she’d be Kitt, not just the driver. It would be easier for her because she had more places to hide things. “Like pockets?” She joked, a flicker of lightness in her voice. “You have all my pockets, babe. You’re carrying my phone right now because all I have is this,” she put her index and middle finger in the small pocket of her jeans. He grinned.
“That’s not what I mean. Dad said he’ll send someone to explain.” His phone rang. He stared at the caller ID, a flicker of something unreadable in his eyes, then swiped to pick it. After a few seconds, he assured the caller they were on their way then hung up.
“That’s the guy?” she had asked, her voice laced with a tremor of apprehension.
“Yeah, Frank. He’s my dad’s handyman. Helps him out with all kinds of errands.” He quickened his pace, already detaching himself. “We should hurry. He sounds like he has somewhere to go.” He dropped her hand.
After a brisk walk, they found Frank at Wafula’s door. Penny watched the tall, lean man from the corner of her eye, a primal instinct flaring. She didn’t like the look of him. Frank explained everything in a few clipped sentences. One. The traveller needs to be a woman. Waf couldn’t go with her. Two. She would need to be trained on how to fill her pockets. Three. The training would happen immediately. She had to take off her bra and panties.
Penny turned to her boyfriend, whose challenging eyebrow offered no comfort, only silence. She turned back to the handyman in a suit. Silence filled the small bedsitter for what seemed like years to her, stretching, suffocating, before Waf broke it.
“Lover of mine.” She did not look at him. She couldn’t. “This can’t be too hard,” he sighed with a hint of impatience. “I’ll be with you the whole time, like I said.”
“No, Waf. He just said we can’t go together. What does that mean? How can we be together if we can’t travel together? I don’t like this.”
The tall man slapped his knees and stood. “Well, I guess we’re done here.” He picked up the leather bag he showed up with and walked to the door.
Wafula stopped him, asking for a few minutes to speak with her. The man said he would wait for five minutes on the balcony then leave. He closed the door after himself. Waf took Penny’s hand and looked in her eyes. “Lover of mine,” he purred. I feel the warmth she felt, the magnetic pull she succumbed to. I can see it in her eyes. She loved it when he coaxed her. “Let’s think about this. This time next year, we’ll be engaged. I’ll be done with school, have a stable job and you, my love, will be my one true queen.”
“I know that, babe.” Her voice was small, almost a plea.
“Okay. Okay. So, we both know some sacrifices have to be made for us to live the good life, right?” She did not answer him and he took that as a sign to continue, already convinced of his own logic. “I love you. You love me. What’s a few flights without each other? When we’re married with little humans we won’t even remember that we had to be apart for any amount of time. You know I like to live intentionally. Be still, lover of mine.”
She let out a sigh. “That’s not what I mean. I love you, Waf, but to strip in front of another man like that doesn’t feel right.”
“I hear you. I do. But we are past that. Look,” he held up her black bra and put the cups around his eyes. “I’m the coolest guy because I’ve got the coolest girlfriend, who will be the coolest fiancé and the greatest wife ever!” She giggled, a fragile sound, and he smiled, taking the bra from his face. “We can do anything when we’re together. I believe that. Do you?”
“I do,” she whispered, her conviction already wavering.
“That’s my girl. Can we call the weird teacher back in, then?” he whispered and touched her chin, pulling her in for a kiss. Penny let herself feel the heat rise in her, needing desperate warmth against the cold dread. She let him kiss her, let him call Frank back in to continue with the lesson.
“If you knew what you know now, at the time, would you have continued?” I asked, my curiosity an unquenchable thirst, growing with every word of her silent confession.
“You have to understand something I realized about myself very early on,” her thoughts drifted, painting a picture in my mind. “As a people pleaser, it is ingrained in me to make others happy, sometimes even to my own detriment. Put that together with being a lover girl, and I was a goner in that relationship. Before him, I had had a situationship that ended a few weeks before I started dating him. You know those unserious high school relationships where you send each other perfumed letters in calligraphed envelopes? His name was Victor, and we broke up during my first semester at UoN. I wasn’t desperate for a relationship. In fact, I wanted to be alone. I had planned for at least a whole year of getting to know myself. I wanted to do picnics with my girls, ice cream dates with the bestie, and when I was ready, try to go on a few dates, for fun. I wanted fun. Then he came along, and he was fun, and it was fine. I broke my own rules for him. I had a rule, since I joined as a first year, to never date a classmate. I should have widened that net to include students in the faculty. Then, maybe I would be fine.” Her eyes were fixed on the bathroom door, lost in the echo of her past choices.
“It was my sixty-ninth trip. A lucky number, and not because of what you think. His birthday was June ninth. Quickly, it became my favorite number. Our best days were his birthdays. I always made sure he had the best time. I gave him experiences, gifts, and all manner of things. I always gave, even when I should have kept some to myself. This would have been the first of his birthdays since we started dating that we would be apart. I cried all that morning begging him to come with me. I begged him to take a different flight and meet me in Abu Dhabi. I almost went on my knees, can you imagine? I just wanted to spend time with my man on his birthday. He promised to try. But by then, something in my gut knew he wouldn’t try. It was not that I didn’t believe him. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this man so I had to trust his word, right? I had to believe he was who he said he was for my own sanity. Believe his promises, even though he had broken some before.”
Expertly, in that bathroom over there, she nods, touching her chin, I see it, her nimble fingers working. She takes off her bra, then the pregnancy pillow she had strapped to her body. She unzips the pillow to start with the larger surface area. Waf walks in with the bag, his movements casual, and they get to work; him on her bra, she on the pillow. She had lined the product more times than she could count and was faster. They put the powder in layers of plastic, wrap the small packages in cloth to prevent any slipping, just as Frank had taught them, and secure them in with duct tape. This was the first time they were using the fake pregnancy pillow, so they had more powder than they had ever handled. “You just have to walk through security,” he constantly reassures her, his voice a smooth balm. “Your suitcase should be fine, and I’m sure this is a foolproof method. Dad said they have used this pillow thing before so it will work.”
She comes out of her daze. “If you asked me then, I may have told you I wasn’t sure. If he actually asked, I may have disclosed that I was scared, terrified even. I wanted to go home and curl up in bed with him, then go out to a museum and walk around with my hand in his till my feet tingled from fatigue, then get takeout for dinner and curl up with him on our couch again, and wish him a happy birthday. But I let him secure the pillow straps to my body. Tears stung my eyes as he hooked my bra behind my back, then wrapped his arms around me. There was a storm in my chest as I put my dress back on and he placed a hand on my protruding belly, a gesture both tender and chilling. I wanted to do everything but be in that bathroom, watching him stuff white powder in my bra padding, watching him caress a lie.”
He watched her in the mirror, turned her around, and wrapped his arms around her, the fake belly between them. “You remember when we met?” I hear his words, sharp and clear. She did. “I loved how big you were. We started dating, I thought I was getting a fat bunda but you kept losing weight.” I feel her freeze in his arms as he touches the fake belly between them. I feel her desperate longing for him to say more. To fix the way her heart was already breaking in his arms. He remains silent, the moment stretching into an unbearable eternity. She turns from him. “We should go,” she half-whispers, half-groans with the agony in her chest. But she doesn’t say anything more. The silence looms, weaving webs between them. He holds the door open as she drags the suitcase behind her. It was empty, save for a few clothes they quickly bought at the mall to fill it. A decoy. The plan was to buy more clothes as they shopped in Dubai, celebrating his birthday weekend.
The last part of her story played out with a horrifying, sickening clarity, not from her quiet recount, but from a vivid, shattering premonition that seized me as she spoke. She walked through the bustling airport, the hum of conversations and distant announcements lulling with a deceptive lullaby. As she approached security, a cold dread, not her own, but a part of her unfolding future, grips me. The familiar process began: bags on the conveyor, shoes off. Then, the polite, yet firm hand on her arm. “Ma’am, could you step aside, please?”
My vision sharpens, focusing on the details she articulated. The uniformed officer, a woman with kind but resolute eyes, guided Penny to a private screening area. The pat-down was thorough, too thorough. The officer’s fingers lingered, a flicker of professional curiosity turning into something more. “Ma’am, we need you to come to a private office. We’ll need you to undress.”
Penny’s heart, a bird trapped in a cage, began to pound. I felt her terror as a cold, sharp blade. She nodded, her face pale, her gaze darting around the sterile corridor. The officer turned, taking a step, leading the way. That was her moment. The sudden, desperate surge of adrenaline also courses through me. She bolted.
It came in a flash of motion, a blur against the airport’s neutral tones. Her legs, unaccustomed to such frantic speed, propelled her forward, away from the inevitable exposure, away from the ruin. She just had to get to Waf. He would protect her. The officer shouted. Other security personnel materialized, a wall of uniforms. A sharp thwip sliced the air. The taser’s prongs found their mark on her back, two fiery points of agony.
Penny’s body convulsed violently, giving her uncontrollable spasms. She crumpled faster than a broken doll, falling onto the cold, unforgiving tiled floor of the airport. Her mind registered the dull thud of her head that gave ger a fractured skull, then the sudden, overwhelming darkness. A final, desperate thought, a mother’s instinct, burned through the fading light. A tiny flutter, a movement deep within her, distinct and undeniable. It was a desperate, almost imperceptible kick, the last vibrant act of a life just beginning, a silent farewell. She hadn’t even told him yet. Her hand instinctively flew to her lower abdomen, desperately trying to hold life in a protective, futile gesture. And then, I feel it too, the echo of two heartbeats faded, replaced by an absolute, terrifying silence. Her body, the vessel of so many secrets, so many desperate hopes, lay utterly still.
All Waf’s Exes Are Crazy III

Chapter III: You Can Look But…
A man’s word is his bond. That is the command of Were when he was made. It is the measure of his being. He is only as good as his word, and when they were younger, when Winona and Peace were closer, Lucas had promised to always be there for his friend. He took his promises seriously. After he went cold, when Lucas didn’t have a lot to do, which was often, he would watch over him. No one can really pinpoint the genesis of their relationship. It was not like Peace and Winona, whose union began with their mothers at the clinic and lasted only eleven short years.
He, however, recalls a time before Waf. “It was a quieter existence, punctuated by a yearning for a sibling. “Days when I would do anything to gain the absence of my parents’ escalating arguments. If they asked me, I’d have supported their divorce when I was in preschool.” On the first day of school, their teacher placed him next to Waf, launching his career as a silent observer of his friend’s whining about his mother’s shifting attention to the new baby.
As an only child, Lucas could only imagine how annoying a crying baby in the downstairs bedroom could be. Now, a more complex web of emotions keep him close. He harbors a lingering sense of obligation perhaps, or the echo of a void Waf had unknowingly filled in those solitary childhood hours. In their first few weeks together, a subtle puppeteer resided within Waf. He held a quiet understanding of Lucas’s deep-seated need for belonging. When boarding school stole his friend, Lucas’s desperate plea had almost swayed his father, but his mother’s firm ‘no’ was absolute, a premonition of a darkness she couldn’t articulate.
Still, when the time came to find a school for him to start class one, her boy had begged and pleaded and done everything but grovel, followed by sleepless nights filled with him crying in bed, annoying his parents enough to let him join Wafula at Friends Academy as a day scholar. This compromise was born of his own silent rebellion against food. When he stopped eating as a last resort, she couldn’t watch her child hurt himself. She cried herself to sleep every night for a month after he enrolled. Reunited, their days blended into a shared landscape, yet even then, a subtle imbalance existed. The truth lay in his mother who noticed when his deliberate academic slump in class four had allowed Waf’s perceived brilliance to shine brighter. It was a sacrifice Lucas had made willingly, unknowingly setting a pattern for their uneven path. A quiet voice that sometimes resembled his mother’s worried tone, would occasionally whisper doubts about Waf’s easy acceptance of their dynamic, but Lucas always silenced it, mistaking his unease for mere overthinking.Lucas would often joke that he was Waf’s errand man. From a young age, he was the clandestine mailman when his friend had letters, folded into precise squares, to smuggle to girls.
Their friendship became a thrill both illicit and bonding. He ferried messages, sometimes accompanied by crisp banknotes, from Waf’s mother who had been reduced to a silent accomplice in her son’s teenage escapades. A sense of purpose, however manufactured, bloomed in Lucas with each task.
Lucas’ parents existed on the periphery of Wafula’s privileged world. His mother, a quiet, hardworking woman, was the Havis’ househelp, her family housed in the modest servants’ quarters. The Havis had lived on the same sprawling street as Wafula’s parents’ for two decades. Lucas’s mother had dedicated the last two of those decades to the Havis household, orchestrating the household’s children’s upbringing. Her own child had naturally gravitated towards the Havis offspring, creating a casual mingling across the class divide, most notably with the house’s lastborn, Winona Michaels, who attended the same school as her son. The Havis, recognizing Lucas’s quiet intelligence, had generously sponsored his education, a debt Lucas felt keenly. After the first day of school, when the teacher placed him next to Waf, Lucas ventured into the neighbors’ manicured lawns, looking for his newfound brother. At that tender age of three, his search for a kindred spirit his own small house couldn’t provide, blossomed into a friendship that felt as immutable as the ancient trees lining their street. His own mother, initially wary, hadn’t minded the boys’ early camaraderie, their innocent games unfolding under her watchful eye as she navigated her chores.
Once, when the boys were about four, their bond still nascent, Mrs. Wafula herself had pressed money into Lucas’s mother’s hand for watching them, a gesture met with a polite but firm refusal. “They keep each other company,” she’d said, a truth that belied the free childcare Mrs. Wafula gratefully accepted. The favor was rarely returned when the boys were at the Wafula mansion as Waf preferred to orchestrate their escapes from the confines of his home, and Lucas provided the willing accomplice. From then, their lives intertwined, almost every waking hour a shared experience. Wafula would materialize at the Havi’s every morning after breakfast, a casual invasion of Lucas’s more modest space, and usually only retreat to his own opulent home well after darkness had fallen, leaving Lucas with a strange mix of fulfillment and exhaustion.
They had walked that path countless times, the familiar cracks in the pavement a silent testament to their shared history. After she first noticed the small, mewling creatures abandoned near their gates, Winona made it her ritual to carry a can of her mother’s tuna, a small act of kindness in a world that often felt indifferent. She sometimes used the cats, their pathetic cries a convenient lure, to get Lucas to accompany her on these missions of mercy.
Not that Lucas truly minded being used in this way, especially when the destination was the imposing Wafula mansion. Who could refuse such pretty eyes? Certainly not this Lucas, whose spectral form still felt the pull of her gaze. So he went by her whim, becoming a silent shadow beside her vibrant presence. He’d feign a token resistance when she’d casually ask whether he knew if his friend was home, if they could possibly visit. Her true aim, Lucas knew even in his state, was to see Peace. Did he mind going to see if Peace was over her latest heartbreak? Certainly not. He would have followed Winona to the ends of the earth, even in a submarine bound for Mars, if she’d asked.
Peace, as usual, was rarely at the mansion. There was a strained politeness between her and Lucia and distance was a mutually appreciated buffer.When Peace was visiting, in bursts of emotional hurricanes that colored the entire neighborhood, Winona would gladly spend time at the Wafula mansion. It was the perfect excuse, hiding behind friendship to be around the boys. It got her access.
In their earlier years, Winona was shy, worsened by a crush that turned her into a fragile, unspoken thing. She would only visit when Peace was around, using their shared history as a shield, buffering against the intimidating presence of Wafula and Lucas’s aloofness. She’d try to catch Wafula’s eye with a new hairstyle or a particularly witty remark, always failing to elicit more than a casual glance. Peace, ever observant, noticed the subtle shifts in Winona’s demeanor, the way her voice softened when addressing her brother, the lingering glances. Inwardly, a sharp pang of irritation would pierce Peace’s carefully constructed composure. She hated it, this unspoken adoration for her brother, but she would pretend it didn’t bother her, a silent battle fought behind her placid expression.
The tension between Peace and Lucia was a constant hum beneath the surface of the estate’s polished calm. Lucia, barefoot and pregnant, resented Peace’s presence. The girl had inherited her mother’s face, giving her an uncanny resemblance to her brother and a living reminder of Wafula Snr’s past. Peace, in turn, saw Lucia as an interloper, a woman who had displaced her mother.
Their clashes were often subtle, a raised eyebrow from Lucia when Peace left a cup on the counter, a pointed comment from Peace about the lack of traditional food. Once, Lucia had found Peace rummaging through a cupboard for a specific type of tea her mother preferred. “Peace, this is my home now,” Lucia had said, her voice tight with thinly veiled irritation. “You ask before you take.” Peace had simply stared, her eyes wide and unblinking, before deliberately taking the tea and walking away, leaving Lucia fuming. “It is my father’s house,” Peace yelled when she was on top of the staircase. Another time, Lucia had tried to enforce a stricter bedtime, only for Peace to calmly inform her, “My mother allows me to stay up later when I’m reading.”
There was always an unspoken challenge hanging in the air, either a testament to Peace’s quiet defiance or Lucia’s feigned stubbornness. Over the years, the distance widened, both geographically and ideologically.
By the time they were nine, a significant shift had occurred within Peace. An unexplained devotion, bordering on obsession, had taken root, its tendrils wrapping around the teachings of Dr. Owuor, a charismatic religious leader whose influence permeated her entire being. His congregation adhered to strict doctrines, particularly concerning women’s attire: hair perpetually covered, the abandonment of pants, and a layered modesty enforced by wearing two or even three dresses at once. Peace’s transformation was startling. Her vibrant childhood clothes were replaced by long, shapeless dresses, her hair always covered by a scarf, even indoors. Her laughter, once free and unrestrained, became muted, her movements more deliberate.During her increasingly rare visits to Upperhill, Peace’s judgment of Winona became palpable. She would cast disapproving glances at Winona’s trendy outfits, her bare arms, the way she spoke of music and movies. “That skirt is too short, Win,” Peace had once said, her voice devoid of warmth, her eyes fixed on Winona’s knees. “It’s unholy.” Winona, initially bewildered, had responded with a defiant shrug. “It’s just a skirt, Peace. What’s wrong with it?” Peace’s reply was a cold, familiar, dismissive silence.
Winona’s choices, her very being, were now viewed through a prism of unholiness, her laughter deemed frivolous, her interests worldly and sinful. The easy camaraderie of their early childhood had curdled into disapproval and thinly veiled criticism, the chasm between them widening with each passing year and each fervent sermon Peace absorbed. Their friendship, once a default, became a burden, eventually snapping under the weight of Peace’s rigid new beliefs. Winona stopped seeking her out, and Peace offered no resistance to the growing void between them.
Lucas, before his spectral form, observed this fracturing with a melancholic understanding. He remembered the brief, innocent connection between the girls, a fleeting reflection of the simpler times before adolescent complexities and fervent beliefs had driven a wedge between them. He also felt a pang of protective anger towards the judgmental rigidity that had consumed Peace. A rigidity, he now realized, that mirrored, in its own way, Waf’s unyielding self-assurance.One afternoon, as Winona and Lucas approached the familiar gates of the Wafula residence, a scene unfolded that sent a jolt of icy shock through Lucas. Consolata, her face etched with a raw grief he’d only glimpsed during the overheard argument, was being escorted out of the house by two uniformed policemen. Her eyes, red-rimmed and swollen, caught Lucas’s. They locked eyes and it gave him a fleeting, haunted connection before she was guided into the back of a waiting police car. Wafula Snr stood on the porch, his expression a mask of cold indifference, watching her departure as if she were a discarded piece of furniture.
A chilling realization slammed into Lucas, a truth far more horrifying than any overheard argument: Consolata hadn’t just been arguing; she had been accusing. And Wafula Snr hadn’t just been angry; he had been silencing. The weight of the secrets Lucas had unwittingly stumbled upon now felt like an unbearable, spectral burden. His hand reached for Winona, a silent scream trapped in his throat. He had to tell her. He had to make her understand the darkness that lurked beneath the polished surface of the Wafula family. But how could a ghost speak? And would she even believe him, especially now, with the widening gulf between her and Peace, a tangible symbol of the growing darkness surrounding them all? The tuna for the stray cats lay forgotten in Winona’s bag, the small act of kindness overshadowed by the chilling spectacle they had just witnessed, a stark premonition of a danger far closer than either of them could have imagined.
All Waf’s Exes Are Crazy: II

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. Thank you for your time.
…let me live, love, and say it well in good sentences. -Sylvia Plath.

Chapter II: Consonants and Vowels
Consolata had been in Wafula Snr’s official employ since graduating high school, her B plain and a glowing recommendation from the Christian Union hinting at a future brimming with potential. A job offer awaited her alongside a blank check intended for her university enrollment. She strategically chose a Business Administration course at the Rift Valley Institute of Science and Technology, Nakuru Town campus. Its proximity to the highway meant she could avoid long walks after alighting from the matatu each morning. The campus was close enough to town for quick errands but just distant enough from the CBD to provide a convenient excuse to avoid unwanted social engagements. Consolata had no particular aversion to the CBD itself; she simply loathed the forced pleasantries and endless chatter with classmates she considered as more of acquaintances than friends. Being late also meant she had to suffer through a tongue lashing from her boss’s pregnant wife, on matters pertaining the young Wafula and his meals. Long after her graduation, even after she had secured a job as the minister’s main bookkeeper, her days often ended with ironing the young master’s uniform, ensuring the boy had fed appropriately and was tucked in ready for the next day.
Frank, Wafula Snr’s driver, became an exception to her endless chatter rule. A lifelong resident of Race Course estate, driving the MP granted him a status symbol he could never have afforded independently. He was the envy of the estate, second only to Chege, whose family held generational wealth. Chege didn’t even count anyway since he rarely interacted with the estate guys. Frank’s peers respected his work ethic and the sleek black SUV he commanded. He held the position of Consolata’s clandestine lover with pride, guarding the secret jealously, relishing the illicit thrill of their connection.
A few weeks into his employment, Frank was ambushed at the T-junction near his home. Three men brandishing what appeared to be firearms forced him out of the vehicle. Their words were minimal, save for one who coughed, a sound that sliced through the night and revealed his identity. Frank recognized that distinctive, tuberculosis-laden cough instantly. He had grown up in the area and only one man coughed like that since childhood.
“Jayden?” He tilted his head, his assailant’s cough catching in his throat. “Jay, I know it’s you.”
The masked men exchanged glances, and Frank watched as the tallest among them gestured for the coughing man to remain silent.
Jayden snatched Frank’s phone, his eyes scanning the screen. Consolata was on the line, her voice a frantic plea for reassurance. They had developed a habit of talking on the phone while Frank drove the minister’s car home “Jay, come on. What is this?” Frank begged.
“It’s not personal. Tell Conso you’re okay,” Jayden held the phone to his ear, but the driver remained silent. “Speak!”
Frank shook his head, a silent act of defiance.
The tallest of the masked men seized the phone from Jayden. “Conso, he’ll be unharmed. Don’t worry.” He ended the call and hurled the phone against a wall, shattering it. An account of the next moments remains lost to the night sky.
The moment Frank limped home, he used his mother’s kabambe to call his boss. His assailants had attempted to break his leg with a rungu, but only managed to inflict severe bruising. The senior Wafula, to Frank’s dismay, remained unnervingly calm. He was summoned to the house to repeat his narration in person. Upon arriving at his boss’s Upperhill residence, Frank was ushered into Consolata’s care. She offered him a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice and tended to his injuries. Before he could finish the drink, three men arrived. Two were uniformed policemen, standing like statues just inside the main entrance as their bosses conferred. They took Frank’s statement and confirmed he could identify where one of the carjackers lived. He guided them to the culprit’s home.
Frank locked up for the night, leaving the police Land Cruiser parked on the street. He called Consolata, assuring her he was safely under his blankets. Zakayo’s Street and the wider Race Course area fell silent. In the days and weeks that followed, no one dared to meet Frank’s gaze. News of Jayden’s disappearance spread like wildfire.
Conso was his refuge. She didn’t look at him as if he were responsible for Jayden’s vanishing act. If a man chooses to leave a place, Frank reasoned, who could stop him? He had no hand in Jayden’s disappearance. He had his job, a decent salary, and a girlfriend who seemed eager enough. Or so he thought.
Lucas, at thirteen, frequently encountered Wafula Snr during his visits to his friend’s Nairobi home. For a few months, during and after his own parents’ divorce, he had practically lived at the Upperhill mansion. Without that divorce, Lucas muses, he wouldn’t have been allowed to even think about spending more than a weekend. He used it to blackmail his parents into allowing him longer stays until he had been able to keep a suitcase at his friend’s home, not that Waf allowed him to wear anything he owned. Wafula’s closet was also Lucas’s, the latter having no other alternatives to the latest designer teen fashion. Even before the divorce, Lucas would go back home after visits with a strange jacket or pair of jeans, rewards for his company.
Wafula’s stepmother maintained a home of pristine order. Crisp white curtains mirrored the neatly folded fur blankets on the plush couches. Lucas spent hours walking on the cold, polished tiles, staring at his reflection, his young mind a whirlwind of thoughts. He also observed Wafula’s interactions with the household staff, including Consolata, who, Lucas knew, lived with them in Upperhill since Wafula’s mother moved to Kakamega.
Sleepovers lasted entire holidays, with Lucas getting a front row seat to Wafula’s treatment of the help, which was a constant stream of dismissive orders and casual demands. He’d snap his fingers at the cook for his juice and address Consolata as if she were an extension of the furniture. “Conso, where are my shoes?” “Conso, if you had a mind you would’ve already ironed my shirt.” “The other one, what was it? With a red faded hat that looks like you found it on Moi Avenue at 8pm.” His entitlement grated on Lucas, the way Wafula seemed utterly oblivious to the fact that he was barely king of any castle, and these were people, not servants. Lucas often found himself apologizing to the staff on Wafula’s behalf, a gesture that earned him polite smiles and the occasional, weary shake of the head.
Lucas recalls one afternoon as teenagers when he and Wafula were on their way to a hangout organized by some of the older kids from school. The boys were to pick Winona up, the daughter of Wafula Snr’s campaign manager, a formidable woman named Patricia. As a result of the demanding nature of her job, Patricia was always on the move, so dedicated to her work that she seemed to forget Winona’s existence. Winona, though a few years younger than the boys, was a constant presence when they hung out. She, too, was a boarder at Friends Academy and the boys were tasked with looking after her, an unspoken responsibility extended to the holidays. They were all invited to the party, to be attended by some of older students who went to Friends’ and also lived in Nairobi and its environs. The trio was both eager and nervous to attend. The event’s poster, commissioned from and designed by Lucas, was dubbed “Nairobi’s Friends” and called to those of similar interests in games and fun with splashes of color. It was not the first time Lucas’s artistry opened doors they otherwise wouldn’t have known existence of. As part of his compensation, Lucas had asked for a plus one, which had now doubled. The boys were walking the path to Winona’s when a stray cat darted across their path a few houses before her gates. Wafula, without breaking stride, kicked it hard. The cat yelped and scrambled away, disappearing into the bushes.
Lucas stopped. “Waf, what the hell?”
Wafula shrugged, a casual, almost bored expression on his face. “It was in my way.”
Lucas wondered what Winona would have done had she been there. The casual cruelty of the act, the complete lack of remorse, unsettled him. It was a fleeting moment, but now, looking back, Lucas realizes it revealed a side of Wafula that he hadn’t fully acknowledged before. A coldness that lurked beneath the surface of his privileged existence. In the moment, he pushed the thought aside, focusing on the party, but the image of the cat stayed with him, an evolving scar on his perception of his friend.
Lucas recalls carrying within him a disquiet born of observing Wafula’s casual dominion over the household staff. Well into their teens, a more insidious disregard had festered. This casual assumption of superiority, however, stood in stark contrast to the Wafula who navigated the social dynamics at school. In uniform, his friend moved with a performative charm, a carefully calibrated suave towards teachers and their peers. This duality sowed seeds of doubt in Lucas’s mind, making him question whether his being uncomfortable with his best friend’s character was valid. It was as if Wafula shed skins between these two worlds, inhabiting each with a disconcerting and absolute conviction, leaving Lucas to grapple with the unsettling truth that the boy he thought he knew was, in fact, a shifting landscape of carefully constructed personas.
Lucas remembers wandering aimlessly around the mansion in the months he spent there, escaping his own parent’s separation. The time morphs together in his memories but one afternoon, the day his mother told him of her plans to get a job away from Upperhill, he was staring at the pieces of African picturesque art Lucia had adorned the white walls with. His friend had gone upstairs to retrieve a video game brought in by his father from his last trip to Greece. The house was quiet, the only sound was the distant hum of traffic from the city. Lucas wandered towards the open study room, drawn by the cool, polished wood of the doorframe. He didn’t intend to eavesdrop, but the hushed voices inside stopped him in his tracks.
“You can’t keep doing this,” a woman’s voice hissed, sharp and strained. It was Consolata.
“Doing what? Providing for you? Ensuring you have a future?” Wafula Snr’s voice was low, a dangerous rumble.
“Providing? Or controlling? You think money makes up for everything? For… for what you did?” Consolata’s voice cracked, and Lucas felt a jolt of shock through his body. His curiosity got the best of him as he held his breath, waiting.
“Don’t be dramatic, Consolata. We’ve been over this. It was a long time ago. And it was for the best.”
“The best for you! You sent him away! And now you parade your perfect family, your perfect life, while he… while he’s out there, somewhere.” There was a raw pain in her voice that Lucas had never heard before.
“He was a mistake! A youthful indiscretion. I have a family here, a reputation. I won’t have you ruining it with your sentimentality.” Wafula Snr’s voice hardened.
“Sentimentality? He’s my brother! And I won’t let you keep pretending he doesn’t exist. I swear, if you don’t try to find him, if you don’t even acknowledge him, I’ll tell Lucia everything.” Consolata’s threat hung in the air, heavy with unspoken accusations.
In the corridor, just outside the study, Lucas felt a cold dread creep up his spine. Brother? Did the help have a brother? Consolata and Wafula Snr? The implications of what he was hearing were staggering. He pressed himself further against the wall, heart pounding in his ears.
“You wouldn’t dare,” Wafula Snr rumbled, but Lucas says he noticed something he is certain he had never heard before. Something he is certain he would never have heard if he wasn’t eavesdropping. The older man held a tremor of uncertainty in his voice.
“Try me,” Consolata spat. “I’m done being your secret. I’m done pretending to be your charity case. He deserves to know the truth, and so does Miss Lucia. My brother and I deserve the same things Waf gets.”
“You’re comparing yourself to a teenager?”
The conversation ended abruptly, truncated by the unmistakable cadence of Wafula coming back down the stairs. Lucas recognized the subtle shift in weight with every other step, Waf’s familiar rhythm against the polished wood of the staircase. A wave of panic washed over him. He scrambled back to the sitting room, his movements jerky and uncoordinated, desperately trying to smooth his expression into one of casual indifference. He was feigning interest in one of Lucia’s hollowed out books that worked as decor when Wafula appeared, the video game case swinging lightly in his hand. Wafula furrowed his facial features as he registered Lucas’s slightly disheveled state, but the expression vanished as quickly as it appeared. “Ready?” Wafula asked, his tone nonchalant, already heading for the three-seater. He threw his legs up and settled with his head on the armrest. “Go on then, set it up,” he gestured to the case placed on the coffee table next to the second controller pad. Lucas swallowed hard, the echoes of the explosive argument still ringing in his ears. He forced a smile, a brittle mask, and grabbed the case, the weight of the overheard secrets a heavy burden as he pushed the disc in and sank into a snow-like cushion. He needed to resume the deceptive normalcy of a teenage afternoon.
When the boys were eight years old, Lucas had a dream that his back teeth were floating. He vividly saw his molars rising in a sea whose tributaries he could not see. Right before he felt the wet on his skin, he woke with a start, his bladder full. They had had enough milkshakes to last their entire class during break time and it had all settled just below his navel. He rushed to the bathroom, letting out a stream aimed at the porcelain to minimize the noise and not wake his friend. As he closed his eyes and let loose his bowels, he overheard a phone call. Waf’s bathroom was connected to his father’s den in the study, the same study where Wafula Snr conducted his business. The wall separating bathrooms on both ends was thin and Lucas, initially, didn’t intend to listen.
“…it has to look like an accident,” Wafula Snr was saying, his voice low and menacing. “I want him to learn. A lesson he won’t forget.”
There was a pause, then a hesitant voice on the other end. “Sir, are you sure? This is… dangerous.”
“Do I sound like I’m asking for suggestions? Just make it happen. And make sure Frank is not involved. He needs to understand his place first.”
The call ended. Lucas felt a knot of fear tighten in his chest. What accident? The pieces didn’t fit. He lay awake for hours, tossing until Wafula woke up. “What’s up with you?”
“There’s people in the house,” he whispered.
“There’s always people in the house, dumbass.” Wafula mumbled.
“No, like, makarao.”
“What do you mean policemen?”
“I swear,” Lucas continued, whispering. “There’s policemen in the house.”
Wafula turned to lay on his back. “Probably just here on official business for Dad. He’s important. Siasa.”
Lucas rolled his eyes in the dark. “We should go see what’s happening. It sounds interesting.I doubt it’s just politics.”
“No. We should sleep.”
Lucas propped himself on his right elbow and listened. The front door opened for a few seconds then banged shut. Waf sat up with a start. “Okay, let’s go check what’s going on in this house.” He swung his legs over the bed and found his fluffy house shoes. Lucas was at the door before him, opening it slowly so as to make no noise. He let Waf walk past first.
The boys tiptoed downstairs and found Consolata washing up in the sink. A glass of half filled with orange juice sat on the counter.
All Waf’s Exes Are Crazy


This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. Thank you for your time.
All I’m trying to do, all the time, is just open people up so they can let themselves be open to someone else. – Nina Simone

Chapter I: In Summation
Wafula gained a scar when his parents separated, an invisible etching that surfaced whenever he felt the walls closing in. He couldn’t have been older than seven when he was hauled to boarding school. His younger sister, Peace, a fragile echo of their fractured home, had her small heart tethered to their father even as her body was uprooted to Kakamega with their mother. Their older brother, a silent witness to the unraveling, found his only solace in their mother. This comfort was shattered the year he faced his crucial class eight exams. For weeks, he’d worn down their mother’s resolve, begging for a glimpse of his biological father. The encounter left him hollowed out, having spent hours in a sterile office lobby while his mother’s hushed pleas remained lost on a secretary whose disdain was a palpable barrier. The biological father, the architect of half of John’s being, remained behind an unyielding door. John returned home, his hand a loose weight in their mother’s tight grip, and the subject remained entombed in silence.
In the stark, echoing halls of boarding school, Wafula’s scar manifested as a quiet certainty, a shadow self that whispered reassurances when the world felt hostile. The youngest among boarding students, he navigated a landscape of both petty cruelty and grudging assistance. It was a precarious balance that kept the small boy tethered to sanity, a fragile thread of hope in a world that threatened to consume him. Yet, this inner voice, this shadow, often eclipsed reason. When older boys pinned his slight frame against the cold porcelain of the toilet bowl, a detached voice within him would ramble on about his mother’s imagined domestic bliss, his older brother back from school for the day playing with Peace, awaiting a father who was no longer there.
Meanwhile, back in the reality of their former home, two-thirds of his family were engaged in a silent battle for survival, attempting to sway Wafula’s father’s kin to offer them sanctuary. When no offers came from her husband’s relatives, she made the only logical decision. In the rigid social architecture of the Luhya community, a woman did not simply return home, especially not one who had once possessed a capable husband. In Were’s eyes, it was an affront, this woman bringing her illegitimate firstborn and her legitimate youngest back to the fold. The absence of Wafula, their recognized first son, the namesake, was an even greater anomaly. His mother, however, a woman forged in the fires of stubbornness, simply hoisted her youngest onto her hip, took her oldest son’s hand, and walked back to her father’s compound. Her head was held high, whether by pride or the precarious balance of the suitcase, no one could truly discern.
She entered the familiar space, a compound she had avoided for the decade since her father joined the ancestors, finding his wives already orchestrating the evening meal around open fires. Her belongings remained untouched, silent sentinels until darkness cloaked the homestead. The oppressive quiet from the women was so profound it startled even the normally boisterous crickets. Without a word, she retrieved her suitcase and ascended the cracked stairs to her father’s abandoned hut, the door sealed since his death. Cobwebs, intricate and undisturbed, draped every surface, mirroring the tangled tales his wives would soon spin throughout the year. She was home.
When the school term ended, Wafula was dispatched to his father’s new life, to Lucia, the woman who now occupied his mother’s former place. Years later, recounting this fractured childhood to a revolving door of girlfriends, he would casually dismiss any suggestion of trauma. The separation, he’d insist, had barely registered. Even as he presented a carefully constructed facade, a polished shell, he maintained that he had emerged unscathed since he was away at school, conveniently overlooking the years spent away from what he termed “drama”.
His intellect, however, shone brightly, a beacon in the turbulent waters of his adolescence. He navigated the KCPE and KCSE exams with remarkable ease, securing a coveted spot to study electrical engineering at the University of Nairobi. Wafula’s mother, in her own way, fostered a sense of independence in her children, a legacy inherited from her own father. She prioritized their image, ensuring their needs were always met, their social lives vibrant. Freedom, within the carefully constructed boundaries of appearances, was her gift. She encouraged them to spend time with friends and ensured they had enough money to buy whatever they wanted during these excursions.
Growing up, Wafula cultivated a habit of convenient untruths, small fabrications that smoothed over minor inconveniences. His backpack? Stolen, of course. The missing kitchen scissors? Surely Peace had seen him in the bathroom, a fleeting glimpse behind the shower curtain, snipping away, the evidence neatly deposited in the trash. But Peace, even at three, understood an unspoken loyalty. Waf was her anchor, her true brother. Of the two, he was her sun, and she instinctively orbited him. School was an agonizing separation, a void created by his absence, a feeling amplified when they relocated to Nakuru Town. The year in Kakamega held a certain magic, a hazy nostalgia that paled in comparison to a Nairobi she barely remembered. Their mother had secured a teaching position at the Rift Valley Institute of Science and Technology (RVIST), uprooting them from her ancestral home to a fledgling existence along the Nakuru-Kericho highway. The Ngata area was still a wild expanse when they first arrived. Peace watched silently as the men her mother paid cleared the dense bush to erect the makeshift shed that offered their first night’s shelter. The cold that night was a visceral memory, the mud walls of their temporary home yielding to her curious poke, the rain a relentless torrent that defied gravity. They huddled together, her mother’s gaze a silent reassurance, a familiar warmth that transcended the downpour. John, however, remained an enigma, his expression unreadable. Yet, his new school uniform lay neatly pressed, a testament to a resourcefulness Peace couldn’t fathom. She eyed the charcoal iron box amongst his things. It was a prized possession of her Kakamega grandies. The women had fought over the device countless times and its acquisition was shrouded in a quiet mystery. Angry phone calls from the accusing women were deflected by their mother’s practiced ignorance. Adamantly, she denied having seen the iron box, even after she found it wrapped in John’s school sweater.
Wafula’s fabrications extended to school life, a tapestry of minor deceptions that somehow never entangled his stellar grades. The teachers, blinded by his academic brilliance, often overlooked the inconsistencies. His deskmate, Lucas, learned early the futility of reporting him, especially in the precarious lead-up to exams. There was a brief window between the initial tests and midterms when consequences might materialize, but even then, Wafula’s carefully cultivated network, the strategic placement of imported snacks in the matron’s room, the discreet deposits with Mr. Odinga, the calculated generosity towards key individuals, often shielded him. Outside that narrow timeframe, he was untouchable. A KitKat, a Snickers bar, a packet of macadamia nuts from the airport; these were the currency of his untouchability. Lucas’s attempts at justice ceased the morning he opened his locker to a wave of acrid fumes, his textbooks soaked in what his nose identified as ammonia.
“Were you in the lab?” Wafula inquired, his voice devoid of concern as he opened his own locker, the offending liquid still dripping onto the linoleum.
“What happened?” Lucas whispered, his face contorted in disgust.
“I think someone was playing with some chemicals around here.”
“What?”
A dismissive shrug was his only reply before Wafula’s attention returned to his Science encyclopedia. Lucas spent the entirety of morning preps salvaging his waterlogged books, leaving them to air outside, and scrubbing at the persistent stench within his locker. The smell of ammonia became an unwelcome constant in his academic life. By the second week of that second term, he had pleaded with his father for a new locker, relegating his old one to the back of the classroom, a silent testament to Wafula’s unseen hand.
When their classmates, sensing an injustice, subtly encouraged Lucas to retaliate, he declined even offered assistance, becoming a tightly wound spring of resentment. Not until the last day of school, after the final Physics practical, did Wafula finally break the silence. He approached Lucas, a predatory glint in his eyes, and whispered, “I did it.”
Did what? “Your locker. I peed in it.”
Lucas stared at the smug curve of his mouth, his deskmate of fourteen years, and a hollow smile touched his lips. “Did you hear me? I know nobody believed you. You were right, that whole time.” He drawled the last sentence, mimicking a southern accent he knew grated on Lucas’s nerves. Lucas’s gaze remained fixed on the abandoned locker at the back of the room. The rest of the Form Four class was gathered around a bonfire near the pit, a chaotic conflagration consuming unwanted remnants of the academic year. Old sweaters, ill-fated love letters, forgotten textbooks, even threadbare blankets were set aflame. Some students, in a symbolic cleansing, burned nearly everything they owned, save the clothes on their backs. Lucas could see the flickering flames rising above the basketball court, sparks ascending like fleeting memories into the twilight sky. He shook his head, not believing his friend.
“I’m not stupid,” Wafula stated, turning to leave.
“That’s not what I meant.” It was the precipice of their shared history. The last day of high school. “I…don’t know.”
“That was always your problem, Luc. A lack of balls. It will be the end of you. You don’t trust yourself enough.”
“I do. You peed in my locker in Class Six. I said it was you. You denied it, called me a liar, said I did it myself. You said you saw me,” his voice trailed to a whisper.
“I know.”
“No! You don’t know. How could you know? Waf, I only wanted a friend.”
“I know.”
“But you have many.”
“What?”
“I knew,” Lucas repeated, his voice barely a whisper.
“I don’t know what you…”
“Waf, it’s okay.”
“No!”
Lucas recoiled. “Okay, okay.”
“No, Lucas. You don’t get to do that.”
“What?” His bushy eyebrows drew together in confusion.
“You don’t get to come here and say things like that.”
“Like what? What am I supposed to do with this information? I can’t tell anyone, it’s the last day of school. I just want to go home tomorrow and forget these things ever happened.”
“You don’t mean that.” Wafula narrowed the distance between them, getting closer to Lucas in the aisle between lockers.
“It’s true. I don’t want anything to do with the memories at this school, with everything that happened, the humiliation,” his voice cracked, the carefully constructed facade crumbling. “I can’t do it. I’ll probably have to talk to someone about it.”
“Someone, what? Someone like who? Who will you talk to about your little problems? Poor Lukey had it bad, huh? Poor Lukey. Who will you talk to, Lukey?” Wafula’s voice dripped with mock sympathy.
“Stop!” Lucas’s voice cracked with desperation. At the gate, Bad Boy, the towering watchman, straightened himself and began his deliberate march towards the classrooms.
“Now look what you’ve done,” Wafula sneered, a flicker of annoyance crossing his features.
“Let him come. At least Bad Boy will know the kind of person you are.”
“I’m warning you, Lucas.” Wafula took three deliberate steps, his frame now looming menacingly over the smaller boy.
“It’s the last day. Let’s just go home and leave this alone.”
“I bet you’d–” His words were abruptly cut short by the sharp rap of the watchman’s baton against the doorframe. “Vijana mwondoke mpatane na wenzenu,” Bad Boy urged them to join their peers by the bonfire, his deep voice resonating in the sudden quiet.
Wafula turned with exaggerated gentleness, facing the imposing figure of the Masai watchman. “Of course, I was just telling Lucas the same thing.” He sauntered towards the door, his gaze lingering on the vibrant red and white checks of the man’s shuka. “By the way, Bad Boy, I have a new shuka that I’m sure you’d appreciate. My mother insisted I use it as a towel. She seems to think, apparently, my whole body needs to be shrouded when I emerge from the bathroom. It makes me look like a wizard. I’ll have my dad bring it to you tomorrow when he picks me up.” He was out the door before the watchman could formulate a response.
Lucas offered a hurried greeting to Bad Boy before trailing after his departing classmate. “It’s really nice of you to give Bad Boy a shuka.”
“It’s been living in my locker for years. Time it got some use.” They walked towards the distant glow of the bonfire in strained silence.
The next morning, as the Form Four parents picked students from their now alma mater, minutes after Bad Boy had carefully placed the pristine checkered shuka, still encased in its plastic wrapper, on his weathered wooden bench in the small shed by the gates of Friends Academy Secondary School, its red and black vibrant in the sunrise rays, a frantic summon called him to the Form Four East classroom. Lucas Bosire’s body was already cold.
All The Things
At a family event a few weeks ago, I stopped paying attention when an aunt said something that immediately stuck with me. Mwanamke hachoki. A woman never tires. This event was to welcome the relatives of my uncle’s girl to the family. It was an event for the women, as said by the current patriarch and first born son of the family. The aunt is the wife of said first born son. This women’s event was staged under a tent, in my uncle’s compound. The men were seated a way off, on the veranda. The only masculine energy that graced the tent was of a probably six year-old kid who came with the relatives, and only because he could not leave his mother’s hem in the way of kids that age.
Hearing “a woman never tires”, when your feet are literally killing you and your brain is foggy from trying to keep everything sane and flowing in the effect of the event is a little stunning. Was I truly tired, I remember asking myself and straightening my back [some say I slouch when my mind wanders]. Two seconds later my posture shifted and resigned that I was, I remained powerless. That I could get tired. It didn’t matter how many things I had done, rounds I went through, backs I straightened. I could get tired, and I am woman.
It is the same with the conversations constantly happening on the Twitter app X. Threads emerge almost on a weekly basis, like of girl math, a harmless way of women expressing little quirks of overspending and overindulging with a limit. Girl math made sense to the girls, till a man pointed out how girls are lacking for not remembering the teacher covered in chalk dust and insisting one plus one was two. It is that Hosseini quote about a finger, to whom it belongs and where it points. It is the rape apologists typing essays about ‘logic’ and sides being taken. Horrible takes where people just say anything and get away with it.
I do get tired. Of hearing the same thing over and over again. The same sentiments that are so repeated that you can say them word for word and they leave their lips. I get tired of saying what I want, even though I know I shouldn’t.
Donald Glover said in an interview that he thinks the meaning of life is to love, and to care for the things that you love.
I don’t think there is an explanation that comes closer to this in the way I have chosen to be this past year. I have taken care of all that I love, that allows me to love, and that definitely loves me back. I have grown in more ways than one and gotten over things that I never thought I could. It puts me in a unique position, that of choosing to be loved in return.
He also said, Glover, that you cannot say ‘the world is shit’ because you are a part of it. Just like you can’t say ‘traffic is horrible’ since you, too, are traffic.
It is a lesson in appreciating all the things. The slim and slim-thick girls posting their photos on X, the nuances, your crush posting on those threads and replies saying they sometimes hate their girlfriend, your loved ones leaving, you getting tired.
You can always pivot. If the world is shit, make sure there is some of your shit existing in the world that you like. Make the tolerable shit.
The discourse over socials is of how men or women can get over the other better, more easily due to the overflowing abundance of the opposite sex. And this may hold truth [I can’t relate because it takes me ages to get over anything], however, I think you will know when you find your person. Not to say there is one person for each, but when you come across the one that jigsaws your soul, you will know. Be it friend or lover, a present spark is unmistakable. And you will fumble [and get fumbled]. Then you will try and replicate it, but a star never burns as bright the second time.
I’m not saying you will be unhappy, but the gnawing feeling of having fumbled a forever sounds crazy to me. A forever after holds you hostage and sucks the breath out of your lungs. Inasmuch as you will be with the next caller and shuffle at will, your person sticks by.
In ‘An Orchestra of Minorities’ Chigozie Obioma writes of a man who falls in love a couple of times, his first love being a bird.
It is a beautiful book, with stunning prose of a man who you actually kinda like because he is funny and is only placed where he is for circumstances. A victim of circumstance.
But he could have saved himself. He has access to a phone. He could have called Ndali, told her what happened. Yet he didn’t. That is the thing that kills her. Not him being angry at her for moving on. Not even the fire at the end. It is because he did not sum up the courage to talk to her. Ndali knew he had a phone. He had access to her but he decided not to. She moved on, and just when she is getting better, here he comes, zero communication skills, blocking her on the street, creepy stalker-y vibes. It’s jail time, for him. But he gets away, which isn’t that surprising.
I went on this tangent to say, we all make our choices. To tire is not one, but to take a much required seat when you are tired, that is entirely up to you.
Reminders of Loss
Nothing makes you remember quite like loss
The people, the places, the things
I lost my keys and my heart stopped
Then a childhood friend and it broke
I tried to pretend like it didn’t hurt
That it had been years since childhood
I became Lord over my jester feels
But the flies roamed close
And as soon as my back was turned
They flooded my vision, reminding of loss
Which has a funny way of recalling
All the good times shared that now
Fade to black
This is for my friend
Claw, who clawed his way into all hearts
Claw, who drew
Claw, who is past, and it hurts
Clawrence, my friend, who remains
They will bury Claw tomorrow
My heart remains
Heavy, hurt, heaving
Asking questions of who remains
I found my keys
He finds his peace
You Up?
A ‘you up’ text at 2254 hours on a Sunday is reminiscent at best, and desperate on the other side. Sunday evenings, actually, all of Sunday is quite sacred, having been raised in a house where people had to be dragged out of bed for someone with a praise kink. The first day of the week, having spent a considerable amount of my childhood as a seventh day adventurer, has afternoons that spread long and thin, afternoons that force you to examine the difference between being lonely and alone.
A ‘you up’ text on a Sunday, especially when you read it the next day at 10 am, is hilarious, no matter where it comes from. It reminds you of things you never knew you’d think about again. Of trees, and ridges and one of the most beautiful sunsets you ever saw. Images replay in your head, in a blinding coexistence of all other times you waited for texts that are still coming. It’s a battle, up in there. A Barbie vs Oppenheimer of multiverse proportions.
In what is, objectively and totally in my opinion, the best piece of work to come out of the pandemic, Taylor Swift opens her folklore album with the song ‘the 1’. I could probably talk about the entirety of Folklore, but ‘the 1’ as an opener, is the best thing since State of Grace (acoustic version). I will try not to digress, and say, Taylor talks about a connection that she has just accepted to have ended. It is a song about that blissful time after letting go, when everything is light again and you come back to yourself. When everything is different, because what you thought isn’t anymore, and it is all okay. The perfection that is Folklore is nothing compared to the existential angst that ‘the 1’ provides. This song, this perfectly constructed song, makes me wonder if someone who sends a ‘you up’ text on a Sunday has ever reached that sense of release. Utter surrender to the universe and what it brings, despite the plans you had made over periods of time.
This ‘you up’ text, having been read at 10 am, gave me questions. Were they looking for conversation? Who wants to talk to anyone on Sunday at 2254 hours, when Monday haters just want to get in bed, and I, in turn, was Looking For Alaska? If we had checked the phone, a habit I have rebuked from my sacred Sundays, would we have responded? Would the text have hung till Monday 10 am? Would we have been rude, or understanding of the solo essence that Sundays bring poorer souls?
A separate ‘you up’ text that comes at 10:58 am on a Wednesday is a whole other story. It is hilariously coincidental, especially when you are in the middle of talking about the one that came a few days earlier. It carries with it the awkwardness of not knowing what else to say, when terms of endearment are no longer on the table. It is a highschool boy talking to a girl for the first time at a funkie because he has been forced by his band of brothers to make the shot. It is a right hand crossed over the body to hold the left elbow, a growing urge to scratch the head, and dry throat and sweat trickling down the arse while staring at a girl you daydreamed of all since the last funkie.
I don’t really know where I was going with this, but the essence of it all, is to look at the casualness that befalls a connection that was once your entire existence. It is a pity, could be a waste of time, and as Ms. Swift says, ‘…never by the same hand twice’.
Part 1: Bumis

The chaos that Bumis could cook up in one afternoon was enough to send the cat away for weeks. She was the designated free spirit among her six sisters, a role she took very seriously. While her siblings thrived on routine and order, Bumis preferred to dance to the rhythm of her own heart so it makes logical sense to tell you about her first. Her days were often filled with unexpected adventures and spontaneous moments, and one chaotic afternoon was about to become a testament to her wild spirit.
That sunny afternoon, the girls, their mother and the cat gathered at the plot behind their house for their monthly picnic. They sat close to the well, as they did each time, and Sera sang into the well. Lana Del Rey’s Summertime Sadness reverberated back to the surface, driving goosebumps up their arms. The air was filled with laughter and excitement as the sisters prepared the picnic baskets and laid out the checkered blankets under the shade of a majestic oak tree. Bumis, true to her nature, held a mischievous glint in her eyes that mother noticed, but dismissed because when did Bumis not have that look?
As everyone sat down to enjoy the feast, she suggested a game of hide and seek. Her sisters exchanged doubtful glances but eventually gave in. “Once that girl has an idea in that chaotic little head,” Zosa said to Pos, “all is lost.” They figured it would be a simple diversion to keep Bumis occupied for a while. They should have declined her request.
Bumis counted to ten, and as her sisters scattered in search of hiding spots, slipped away unnoticed. She ventured deeper into the man-made forest surrounding their compound, her heart pounding with excitement. The forest had been developed by their father, as Mother had told them before. When the young couple moved into the piece of land the girls now called home, there were just but a few hardwood trees scattered. Mother said father carefully selected the trees to fill up the space, and eventually created a forest before her eyes. It was these woods that Bumis now explored, having always been fascinated by the mysteries hidden within the woods.
While her sisters diligently sought hiding places, Bumis stumbled upon an old abandoned treehouse nestled high among the branches of an ancient oak. With a mischievous smile, she climbed up, marveling at the overgrown vines that enveloped the structure. The treehouse had an air of forgotten tales and whispered secrets, and Bumis felt an irresistible urge to uncover its mysteries.
Inside, she discovered a hidden compartment filled with dusty old books. Curiosity overwhelmed her, and she began leafing through the pages, delving into stories of far-off lands, mythical creatures, and extraordinary adventures. Time seemed to slip away as Bumis lost herself in the enchanting tales.
Meanwhile, chaos reigned back at the picnic. Bumis’s sisters had finished their hiding and were now frantically searching for her. Panic slowly crept into their voices as they realized she was nowhere to be found. They scoured the estate, calling her name, but all they received in response was the whispering wind rustling through the trees.
***
Okay, the sisters are finally ready, with Bumis setting the scene.
There has been what we can only describe as a lot, and we want to thank the heavens for the habit of journaling, which I also have a problem with now because why am I seeing all the madness plastered onto pages with my writing?
